Real Girl Diaries

I hate it when the line between healthy/unhealthy starts to blur. :P

Also, I love hate that when I’m super stressed I lose my appetite. And between no appetite & no time to eat, I’m pretty sure I’m starting to fall below what I should eat. But I don’t know for sure since I made myself stop counting calories like 6 months ago. 

Maybe I should take up yoga…

This last week or so I’ve been really trying to eat healthy, drink LOTS of water, & work out at least a little bit each day. So far, I’ve already lost 2.5 lbs (probably just water weight, but still!) and I feel great! Bikini season, here I come! I’ve got a good feeling about this summer!! :D

So, last week my therapist told me to write a letter to my ex, stating why im angry & sad, but also what I learned from him & our relationship & what I hope for in the future. As I wrote the letter, I realized 2 very important things:

1. He was a class-A asshole.

2. I’ve been holding onto that for 2 1/2 years. Sheeesh.

So, point I’m getting at is that things are starting new. I’m gonna do my best to let go of the old chapter and move forward. And maybe once I do, better guys will come along!

That is all :)

Just wanted to say that I’m super excited to be officially done with my first year of college!! :) 

Aaaand I believe I finished this semester with all A’s. Pretty psyched. :)

I have been feeling soooo much better lately! Things have been stressful, but I’m not feeling overwhelmed. I feel awake, motivated, content, hopeful, happy! 

And I finally got to see the therapist I’ve been wanting to see for the first time. And I’m going in again in a couple weeks.

Aaaand I’m almost out of school. Which means soon all of my best friends will all be together again. Yay!

It is a beautiful day. I am going to go outside with my dogs now :)

But before I go, here’s a wonderful quote my best friend showed me:

“The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours—it is an amazing journey—and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins.”

~Bob Moawad

So, I finally got up the guts to talk to my mom (again) about how I really want to see a therapist. There’s one that my best friend’s been seeing for her ED, but the problem is she’s an hour away & expensive. And my family is broke. But I’m hoping we can somehow make it work…if only for a few sessions. Even just a few sessions will help, right?

I actually walked my dogs today. It felt great to be outside; the fresh air is rather invigorating. Lately I’ve been spending all my time inside, usually on the couch. :P

But I’m trying. 

And I’m doing better. :)